The piece derives its initial inspiration from the philosophical work of Albert Camus "The myth of Sisyphus". Specifically, my experience of studying this work was maybe my most shocking and thrilling one. These dramatic theories about Absurdity gave me a strong inspiration to compose this piece. Each movement is inspired by some words I distinguished from the first chapters of "The myth of Sisyphus";
I and II:"..all true knowledge is impossible. Solely appearances can be enumerated and the climate make itself felt." (the awareness of the Absurd)
III:"At the heart of all beauty lies something inhuman, and these hills, the softness of the sky, the outline of these trees at this very minute lose the illusory meaning with which we had clothed them, henceforth more remote than a lost paradise." (the inhuman of Nature)
IV:"From the moment absurdity is recognized, it becomes a passion, the most harrowing of all. But whether or not one can live with one's passions, whether or not one can accept their law, which is to burn the heart they simultaneously exalt—that is the whole question." (the dramatic Passion of being)
V:"Abstract evidence retreats before the poetry of forms and colors. Spiritual conflicts become embodied and return to the abject and magnificent shelter of man' s heart. None of them is settled. But all are transfigured. " (the will for Unity despite acknowledging its delusion, the Incarnation of spirit)
The awareness of the Absurd (I and II), the bittersweet truth of the inhuman but charming Nature (III), the intense Passion of being (IV) and the will to Unite everything despite the fact that this is unattainable (V): I tried to convert these ideas musically with the feeling of a dramatic and intense state of mind; neutral elements become luminous and simultaneously dark, taking different shapes as they continue to exist in time and trying vainly to be built but quickly destroyed, like a constant battle between charming romance and brutal reality. Before the end, the Unity comes as a glimpse of hope but is destroyed once again, and the neutral or bitter sweet flavor of Absurdism returns -as it began- in the end, in order to remind us that Sisyphus will still continue to carry the rock to the top of the mountain despite the fact that it will fall again and again...
(flute, oboe, clarinet, bassoon, horn, bass clarinet, celesta, piano, violin, viola, cello, double bass)